Have you missed me ?

this is me and rachel
grandson kye

me and cal

great pic of the cow

this is me with cows

this is andrea and cal,

,hello ,well its been a while now since i done me blog ,so this is going to be a long one, over the last few weeks iv been very up set and down ,with Andy and the the kids ,Andy's not been well again ,his not eating properly ,its like his eating but his eating the wrong food ,sweet and fatty foods ,im sure he feels down about his weight loss and is trying to put it back on ,,but being diabetic you cant just eat what his been eating ,like a whole tin off peaches in syrup,ect,just bad things like that ,so we git him some puddings with no added sugar in ,,but they still have sugar in them ,so his mum got him a bar off sugar free chocolate,he said its got no taste ,his gone off Sunday dinner with all the veg and goodness that he needs ,so at the moment he is eating what ever,the last two days have been bad ,he has had temperature ,shaking , feeling hot one minuet cold the next ,being sick ,and really sweating ,the bed was soaked this morning so i had to strip and wash ,yuk,lol,,,,,a couple off weeks ago i had a break with my friend Rachel ,we went to stay in a lovely farm house at her friends in braithwait ,andrea and cal who is a lovely couple ,it was lovely ,so peace full ,but with lots to se ,and the weather was brilliant ,had a great time ,only stayed over night and a day there ,so when i got home i felt i needed to have been away longer ,i will just have to wait till we go to skeg in august ,,cant wait because my friend Rachel is coming with libby ,so it will be nice cos Andy still has to have dialysis when we go ,and Andy don't like the sand ,so i will have some one to sunbathe with on the beach ,i still feel down ,,the other day i was in co op in a Que waiting to pay ,i don't no why but i just started to cry ,,,and i just thought to myself why am i being like this ,its not like me ,a friend told me to go to the doctors and ask for some anti depressant ,been ther done them they dont help when you get addicted to them ,and when you come off them you feel like crap again ,it does help having someone to talk to that dont judge you in what you are doing ,i try and talk to Andy ,and its great for a couple of days then i start feeling down again ,so im just taking the days as they come and go and hope one day we will live a happy normal life ,the kids are not very happy at the moment ,ones been grounded for a month because he has been and done something really stupid ,,,cant tell you what ,and the other is down about doing satts at school ,,,,,,,,,well i no it was last bank holiday since i done my blog and i was wrong about the weather ,so hopefully its going to be nice this bank holiday weekend ,,as we have family coming up and its Andy's dad 70 th birthday on Saturday so we are doing a surprise party for him ,then in the evening Rachel's having a eurovision party ,which will be funny ,so we are going to have a good weekend ,,as long as andy is well,,,,,,we are still trying to get our back garden sorted out in time for the nice weather,im going now just a few pics off me friends and granson ,ttfn xx