birds

Andy still no better today ,his very tired and week and keeps feeling dizzy and sick ,his sleeping well lately ,but still got a bad cough ,after five days off antibiotics i thought he would be better ,he looks awful today ,i went shopping today i brought mother in law a bird bath she loves watching the birds in fact as soon as she opens the curtains in the morning they all fly down from the trees ,and wait to be fed ,she feeds them sultans and nuts and fat balls ,she's like bird lady lol,i had my grandson last night and took him shopping he was good as gold ,not got much to say today ,so ttfn,xx

earthquake

what a bad night ,was woken by the bed shaking and the wardrobes banging against each other ,i just looked at Andy and said were going to die ,lol, i was so scared my heart started pounding .so i went down stairs had a fag then another ,i couldn't calm down , i looked out the window and saw loads of house lights go on and people in the street ,i went back up stairs to bed Andy just said were be alright ,well after ten minuets of getting back into bed Andy was snoring ,lol ,it took me ages to get back off to sleep what with heart still pounding Andy snoring ,lol,the kids slept through it all when i told them in the morning they didn't believe me till they saw the news ,I'm glad they did sleep threw it because i think they would of been worse than me ,anyway Andy got back about 12 today from dialysis and went to bed for 2 hours or so ,i had my grandson kye today he feel asleep eating his lunch in his highchair,lol,so i went to sleep as well ,must of needed it because we slept for two hours,i went to my normal Wednesday night bingo with me bids and won 65 pounds ,lucky again ,going shopping tomorrow so mother in law will get a nice present this year for mothers day she deserves it anyway,ttfnxx

dialysis at worksop

today Andy has been really tired ,his been asleep most of the day but coughing allot,a bit of a temperature as well,recently when Andy was in hospital we was asked if Andy would like to dialyse in our own home ,they would of trained us both to put Andy on dialysis in the comfort of our own home ,it would off been brilliant Andy said if only we had another room or even a conservatory ,so we decided that we couldn't have dialysis at home ,unless we moved to a bigger house ,which is not a option at the moment .Sheffield northern gen is great but its a long way to go ,when Andy was in hospital his dad drove to Sheffield every day ,which was really tiring for him ,anyway we have been told that next year Andy could be going to bassetlaw hospital worksop for his dialysis treatment which would be great for Andy ,not so far to travel and when you have just had dialysis and not feeling to good then you got that long journey home it makes you even more tired,and also if Andy is not feeling to good after dialysis then he has to wait until he is OK to go home which holds up the driver and other dialysis patience,if he was at worksop it would be easier to get home and to travel to worksop ,there is allot of other people on dialysis that also have to travel from worksop to Sheffield ,and I'm sure they would benefit if they didn't have to travel all that way ,Andy gets picked up at 6 15 in the morning three times a week and he get home by 12 that's on a good day ,on a bad day could be 1 o'clock,so we really hope that this time next year he will be at worksop for his treatment .ttfn xx

insulin error ,

the safflower ,

andy well today ,a bit better any way ,he did see the doc at hospital and the doc gave him yet another dose off antibiotics ,you think after having four lots another dose is going to clear it .will see ,if i didnt have friends and family round me i think i would of killed myself by now ,lol, just fed up with all the illness ,,but then again i dont go threw it ,,but i do because it gets me down ,its very worring and stressfull when someone is ill,people say to me how do you cope ,i used to say i just do ,but now as im getting older i dont ,i dont no its been a long time andy being ill we have been together ten years this year for most of that time his been very ill ,we used to talk alot about our feelings to each other andy used to realy open up when he had a few drinks, but now he dont drink we dont talk or should i say he dont talk .and i realy miss that ,and i do feel that being a diabetic has changed him abit ,loosing his kidney was bad enough but this has hit him more ,tonight before tea andy done his blood suger and as normal done a insulin injection,but as he pulled the needle out off his leg it all dripped out off his leg so i told him and he done it again ,and again he took the needle out and it just spurted out off the needle ,this has never happened before so i said try it in your arm ,so he did and it went in ,so we think this is why he was having lots off high blood sugars ,so i will watch him when his doing insulin ,i wonder if anyone else has had this happen to them it would be intersting to know,the picture is a safflower ,which in april 2007 it was genetically modified safflower has been bred to create insulin,ttfnxx

sunday,s

,today andy is not well ,we had our sunday dinner at his mums today ,love it when i dont have to cook ,but andy didnt come not well enough ,so his mum sent some round ,enjoyed dinner though,hopefully andy is going to ask to see the doctor at dialysis tomorrow but sometimes they dont get to him ,i wouldnt be suprised if they keep him in ,you can tell his breathless ,coughing bad but still managing to smoke ,he made me laugh he said i think i need a week in hospital to get away from fags and bugs ,so i said andy it doesnt stop you smoking when your in hospital and you always end up getting some sort of bug in hospital ,well its true ,every time andy is kept in hospital he always ends up with something ,apart from me dinner i hate sundays there so boring ,i like to go to bingo tonight but cant go no money ,trying to save some for holiday ,kids are ok they dont realy get bored and andy always sleeps ,sometimes he dont no ive been out ,lol,anyway going to my friend rachels for a cuppa and home made rice pudding, had some of her mums not so long ago and was realy lovely .ttfn xx rice pudd was lovely thankyou rachel ,when i got home the cat had ripped through the foil that was covering andys dinner and ate his beef ,lol .i thought to myself andy would not of eaten it anyway cos he was off his food ,he hadnt eaten anything all day so about six he had some off rachels home made rice pudding that she gave me earlier ,he ate it all and said it was nice ,but later he went upstairs for a shower next minite i hurd he was being sick ,(it wasnt the rice pudd rach,lol) i had a feeling this was more than a cold ,hopefully we will find out tomorrow,ttfn,xx

bonfire night !

today has boring ,andy still not any better ,i went house sitting this morning for my daughter kelly so she could shopping ,she was expecting a plumber round but he never turned up ,while i was there got bored so i ended up hovering the whole house ,and cleaning everywere .then when she came home i went home and done my cleaning in my house ,and done loads off washing aswell as kellys cos her washer not plumbed in yet ,ive then cooked dinner ,then i went out the back garden and decided to have afire because i had so much rubbish pileing up ,didnt think it was that windy so i lit it ,then all off a sudden the wind picked up and sparkes were flying ..lol.and burnt paper flying round ,,i thought id be better off watching the fire indoors ,at this point i stunk of smoke so i went in the shower ,hair smells better now ,fire still burning a little ,lol,ttfn,xxxxxx.

headaches who needs them

hello friends didnt make it last night ,was realy tired and had a mirgrain which always last about 25 hours ,im still worried about andrew he seems tired and his seems abit weeker today he even said he feels week still coughing well and saying his chest hurts ,i just wish that he would tell someone at the hospital he goes three times aweek but i think he has had enough of hospital and tests and tablets ,he hasnt felt well since he had his operation last month, so if he is still ill on monday i think i will have to phone hospital myself and tell them which i have had too loads of times because he just wont, his even lied to me before now and said he had a word with the doctor when he didnt ,i think he gets scared ,iv never known him to be this down or should i say up and down but mostly down and very tired he sleept for three hours when he came back from dialysis today which is normal but he said he could fall asleep now ,blood sugar highs and lows again ,i felt a bit bad last night leaving my friend after she had a panic attack because she was home alone but i had a realy bad headache couldnt even stand the light in the end ,i felt sick aswell ,i thoght i was hungry so i tried eating crisps but every crunch realy hurt my head ,so i went to bed ,anyway hope you had a better day today rachel ,ttfn xx